HCG has dropped to 26. Not much more I can say about that.
I'm ok when I'm distracted. But when alone- it leads to trouble. It leads to trouble because my thoughts get invasive. They like to ask 'what if' questions. They like to Google things that aren't necessary to know like... due dates. They over think things.
Last Fall when I was going through a particularly hard spell, my mom suggested I look for a support group in my area. I scoffed at the idea because I didn't think I was that far gone. I should have listened to her because I totally was.
I ended up doing an internet search a few months later and found an infertility meetup sponsored by RESOLVE and hosted in the neighborhood next to mine. I contacted them. They meet once a month. I went so far as to schedule the meetings in my calendar. Yet, each month I could never work up enough courage to go. This month I RSVP'd.
The meeting is tonight.
Good for you! I've been thinking I need to go to something like that. Last night my therapist was telling me that exercise and socialization were the two things that seemed to have the greatest success of clearing your mind and cheering you up when you are going through a difficult time. Especially socialization where there is a common thread.
ReplyDeleteSo since I can't be there to entertain and delight you I think it's great you are going.
I hope the support group meeting went well tonight. I know how dangerous those intrusive thoughts can be - its good to get out of your own head for a while.
ReplyDeleteDid you make it to the support group? I hope you found supportive, in-real-life women who understand your experience. Take care and keep Dr. Evil, I mean Google, away.
ReplyDeleteI hope you find the RESOLVE group a source of support. Sometimes just connecting with other IFers IRL helps.
ReplyDeleteHI! I'm just stopping in to see how you are doing :D HI!
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