HCG has dropped to 26. Not much more I can say about that.
I'm ok when I'm distracted. But when alone- it leads to trouble. It leads to trouble because my thoughts get invasive. They like to ask 'what if' questions. They like to Google things that aren't necessary to know like... due dates. They over think things.
Last Fall when I was going through a particularly hard spell, my mom suggested I look for a support group in my area. I scoffed at the idea because I didn't think I was that far gone. I should have listened to her because I totally was.
I ended up doing an internet search a few months later and found an infertility meetup sponsored by RESOLVE and hosted in the neighborhood next to mine. I contacted them. They meet once a month. I went so far as to schedule the meetings in my calendar. Yet, each month I could never work up enough courage to go. This month I RSVP'd.
The meeting is tonight.