My wounds that had not even begun to heal have been made even bigger.
Trisha and I met through the infertility blog world. I was drawn in by both her wicked humor in the face of pain and her soft spots that were so vulnerable they made me feel more human. We experienced our first miscarriages within weeks of each other. We bonded through our anger and pain. Then we met in real life and a true friendship was forged.
And then we found ourselves both pregnant again. With the same due date. We whispered of hope and excitement despite our overwhelming fears. We supported each other when the other was weakened by bad dreams or angst for the future. There was an understanding. A link. A bond.
In a twist that only the darkest novels would dare to take, we find ourselves tangled in the worst of nightmares. Trisha just received news that her sweet MB's heart has stopped. There is no cap to the amount of cruel that this world has to offer.
Now I find the grief I had for myself has shifted to my sweet friend. Her pain is my pain. Please offer her the support and love that she needs so badly right now.
I don't know what is going on in the world right now, but it is unfair and unjust. My heart completely goes out to the two of you.
ReplyDeleteI've been thinking of you both today. This is such a bitch of a double-whammy and completely unfair to you both. I'm sending both of you love and many hugs from afar.
ReplyDeleteHow completely unfair. Thinking of you both.
ReplyDeleteJust found your blog and am so sorry you are going through this. I have been there, too many times. The grief is paralyzing I know, but I hope each day gets a little easier. I know how hard it is....
ReplyDeleteOh, so so sorry you both are going through this...so completely unfair and devastating, thinking of you...
ReplyDeleteLife was so unfair this week. I can't seem to find the right words, but know that I am thinking of you both, wishing I could take some of your pain away.
ReplyDeleteI have no words, but you are not alone. Infertility is a huge strain on any marriage and I hope you lean on the people that have compassion for your pain. You have every right to be devastated and to be grieving right now. I hope you get the support that you need.
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