I am here. I'm just traveling again. As my last post insinuated, I am home. "Home" being a squishy word.
I've been going through some really difficult things lately. Things that I have not been able to post about yet, but hopefully will soon. The other day I was with my mom; the tears were falling fast, my body was weak, and everything just felt so... big. My mom pulled me to her and I ended up falling asleep with my head in her lap while she stroked my hair. I felt like I was three years old again. So loved. So safe.
The door has opened. Now I just have to step through. It's just that that first step is a doozy. And I'm terrified.
Sending lots and lots of hugs your way...
ReplyDeleteThinking about you and really hoping that the days to come bring peace and strength.
ReplyDeleteAlways here if you need anything. In the meantime, I hold you in my heart and hope that the first step is the beginning of wonderful things.
ReplyDeleteLoved. Safe. Home. Good.
ReplyDeleteHere for you for whatever. The image of you with your mother makes me feel like crying. So glad she is there to provide comfort and love.
ReplyDeleteThinking of you lots. Whatever it is you are planning, I know that you can take that first step because you have been (and still are) so strong. Xoxo
ReplyDeleteI know how hard everything must be for you right now. Let me just say how proud of you I am. I think you are such an amazingly strong woman and I know you can get through this. You deserve nothing but complete happiness. I'm here to hold your hand whenever you need me. Can't wait to talk to you Saturday!
ReplyDeleteThis little post made me cry. I wish my mom was still around to comfort me. I hope your time home is healing.
ReplyDeleteMoms can often make everything a little bit better. So glad she was there for you, but I'm so sorry that you're going through a difficult time. Please know you can turn to me any time. Hugs, friend.
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry it's so difficult, but also so happy for you that you have such a comfort-filled relationship with your mom. Thinking of you and sending hugs from afar.
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry things are so hard right now. Sending hugs your way.
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